Youtube video- The Paintball Project Day 24

This blog post was made in two parts on Memorial day- the day the United states honours its veterans. Bilal said he felt good and the steady volume of fire required loading the gun every twenty minutes. He recalled how the previous day had been very difficult emotionally. He says he was feeling much better than yesterday and had restored his confidence in his ability to finish his project. He mentions that he had chosen to not show disturbing footage from yesterday. He looks down as he says this. He was concerned that he would upset those that cared about him.

He searches for his words then says that he felt he could share that footage now. Bilal stammers a little as he warns the video shot after  his friends left the previous day was very disturbing. He says the rate of fire in the background was much lighter than in the footage he was about to show from the previous day.

"Hi everybody, (2:15) it's Monday, memorial day....it is the heaviest day we have had... all the available slots have been filled." Said Bilal. I counted 9 rounds fired in the first thirty seconds of this segment. "I honestly thought it would be much quieter because it was memorial day." he says that it is not only the US, with Denmark, Ireland, the UK, France and Canada as contributing  people operating the paint ball gun. He is perplexed that such a global presence would appear on a Monday, even if it was a holiday for the US.

He says it was the first time he had seen this. Saying he will provide an update later, he turns his camera toward the gun which is traversing rapidly from side to side. He then turns the camera back at the opposite wall. Bilal again emphasises the damage done and high volume of constant fire. He says he expects the server to crash, then signs off.

When he returns, he says it is memorial day.   Bilal's brow is knit beneath the protective goggles and his movement is abrupt and jerky. he stammers a little, as he says they are "still under heavy bombardment".  He notes that his personal computer has crashed(too much chat traffic, but the gun is still firing. He says that he has to reload the gun's hopper every ten minutes and he swings the camera towards the gun, whose hopper is almost empty. He says "gotta go andf fill it as the camera swings abruptly and the video cuts.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OWUfROO6-34



The second video of day twenty four begins by repeating the last 20 second of the previous video.  The camera now points bat the ceiling as Bilal moves, then he places it where it can view him loading the gun. As he places handfuls of paint bails in the hopper, the gun jerks violently from side to side. He returns to address the camera, with the paintball gun visible over his shoulder. He notes that the server is full, with 60 or seventy other trying to log on. The mnajority were from the US but he notes many were from Demark, UK, France and Thailand. The video cuts away.

When it resumes, Bilal appears without his goggles and says it is 5o'clock. The shoot continues, with refills every fifteen minutes and people from around the world. Bilal describes this as a hard day. The video abruptly cuts to the day 23 footage that Bilal had desribed earlier.

In this clip, we can hear bilal suck in his breath and sobs."People don't mind giving me so much hope- everybody' is in Tears" says Bilal. "Can you imagine an entire nation living like this?" And his voice cracks as he begins to weep. He looks away from the camera and flinches with the crack of a paintbal round. He is silent for a few mintues then the video retrurs to the openiing sequence from day 24.

Bilal says" I hope this will give you an idea of how hard it is to be in this place. It's no longer a physical game but a mnetal one because he no longer fears the gun, which he describes as "scary". It is mental because the act of shooting at him has become mechanical. The taunts of some people online in the projects chat room. He describes his unease with his ability to continue and the frustration of the other perticipants with the projects continuation.

Bilal says"My intent is to raise awareness of my family in Iraq... That is my first intent and I'm going to continue doing until next Monday. Thank you for your support, you have been great. I look forward to talk to you all at some point. Bye for now". His demeanor seems more determined or perhaps rigid as this last brief clip plays.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=maaZ7fiyQhA

Youtube Video- The Paint Ball Project Day 23

Bilal addresses the camera with the street behind him, visible through the gallery window. He says he has a new energy thanks to the people watching the blogs posted on Youtube, those participating through the online chat room , and visitors that spent time with him in front of the gun bringing "care, love and food". But he says his emotions are going up and down and he has trouble composing himself. He warns that the footage he was about to share might be a bit disturbing but "reflected reality". The video cuts away to previous footage.

"Hi everybody it is day 23 and I have two of my best friends here." Bilal is again in the yellow room, the wooden panels protecting the wall from paintball rounds visible behind him. He pans the camera to BenCK and SylviaCK who are both wearing full head paint ball helmets. Bilal mentions they have just returned from vacation and that both took part in the project, Ben writing [computer] codeCK and Sylvia writing the Html. Syvlia says it is very intense being in the space with the gun, and she and Ben giggle nervously then she jumps as the crack of a paintball round resounds through the room. A second before she had responded with a "yes" to Bilal's question of whether she felt "she was in a war zone". She says the the sound is very intense, causing her heart rate to elevate and "creating a constant state of anxiety". Bilal goes on to say that is probably what is causing he symptoms of heavy breathing and chest pains that he described in his previous blog posts. He says he will update later and that segment of the blog post ends.

When the video resumes he is walking towards the front doors of the gallery. He says" They are here, let's say hi to them and he pans his camera to a trio of smiling people, visible through the window, approaching the doors. He greets them warmly and they introduce themselves as Lori Talley CK, Lori HemslayCK and Nick Muller. Bilal explains they are bringing him lunch and describes his appreciation for how the community are taking care of him since he is "totally isolated".

This made me think of how shamanic characters would have been supported by the people around them in the earliest human communities. These feats of endurance as a way of acquiring wisdom for a community required supporting the artist/religious figure/diviner as a conduit.

They enter the gallery, going up the stairs. The segment ends as they stop for lunch.

The video repeats the interview with Ben and Sylvia.

At the conclusion of the video, Bilal says he has decided not to include the disturbing video, because it had upset him too much. He says he is feeling good and it is about two o'clock in the morning. things have been stable- the gun never stopped. I am up for it so pleased don' t be worried, I'm going to be fine. Bye!" The video ends as the camera pans in a blur then cuts.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DciV2znsGpo

Youtube video- The Paint Ball Project day 22

The video begins with Bilal saying we are probably wondering what the noise in the background. We can hear a noisy crowd, and Bilal's face fills the camera frame but the camera is facing out of the immediate area into the greater gallery space. Waiters and wedding guests appear and disappear as they pass by the portal. Bilal explains the wedding is causing him to have tremendous swings of emotion. He is perplexed by by his motion and says "the reality is blurred, now". The gun was turned off for the wedding, at the request of its organisers. Bilal recalls the same emotional experience when the gun was turned off during day ten. Tears are visibly running down his cheeks and he seems to be staring off into space as he speaks.

He says that this time as he can let down his guard , he doesn't know if he could continue. He describes his emotions as uncontainable, crying then laughing and smiling. He says" I know it is only eight days to go, but I am so worried about my mind... I hope, I hope, I hope I am going to finish the next eight days. He feels that his turmoil is exacerbated by having "the wedding on one side and destruction on the other". He pans the camera to the wedding then quickly to the paint covered area then back onto himself, again. He says he does not resent the wedding as it is "a celebration of something beautiful.

However Bilal says this painful emotion results from his particular situation. Recalling the support he received from some one in the chatroom during his previous experience he hopes he will find a "new point of strength". The video breaks at his point.

When the video resumes, Bilal is back in goggles and armoured vest and in the yellow room, with the latest room lamp in the background over his shoulder. He says he friend Alicia had just called him and was waiting in the alley with dinner for him. He had apparently turned the gun on again, and as he left the yellow room, he bent low to avoid paintball fire, then stood up and replaced his goggles with spectacles, again commenting on the strange juxtaposition of the paint ball gun with the wedding and it's audible sound of people in social hubbub. As Bilal makes his way to the side entrance of the gallery, music can be heard in the background and we can make out the last melisma of the chorus of The BeeGees' Stayin' Alive. He says "Hey!" and waves to his friend.

He explains he can't step out of the gallery and asks her to come in. She goes to find parking and he says they will return. He comments the air smells so good it is torture. The video cannot convey the smell and texture of living in a filthy dangerous space. Then his friends arrive from out of the darkness.

"Hi Who are you?" asks Bilal. Michael introduces himself then Bilal points the camera at Alicia and introduces her, and Michael as her boyfriend. She says "You got a really bright light on that thing" referring to the camera light that makes them both flinch. Alicia says she got him extra spicy curry and chicken and he pans down to the bag she is carrying. He jokes that alot of girls bring him food but this time Alicia has brought her boy friend. They enter the gallery and the conversation is buried by the wedding sounds, then the video cuts.

Bilal is back in the yellow room when the video resumes. His typical introduction of "Hey, Everybody it's Day 22" has been moved to this last section. His voice is more up beat than in the beginning and he seems more composed in his armour and goggles. He says that with the gun active and the wedding over his emotional "swing" has ended. "All the emotion disappears. I don't know how to explain it" Bilal says. He shifts his position and sits on his bed and there is the familiar crack of the paintball gun. "I hope this concludes the day. Eight more days." He stares intently into the camera. Music is audible and it seems to be pop from perhaps Iraq. Then video ends with Bilal still staring into the camera.


This self imposition reminds me of the way we choose to confine ourselves in particular jobs, roles and locales in order to achieve something better. How Weberian, how modern? Is this how Empire recolonises itself?
Does this will to endure enable biopower that sustains Empire?



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HCBji8pQ-nM

Youtube video- The Paint Ball Project Day 21

Day twenty one begins with Bilal in protective goggles, his black and white Keffiyeh around his neck. As with most of his videos, his face is in closeup, with the the usual paint spatter yellow of the gallery wall behind him.

Bilal's video blog for that day begins without his usual greeting. His appears to have started recording in the middle of his address. He stumbles for words which emerge as a jumble "ahh...post-traumatic syndrome...ahhh starts showing that.."

He then swears with a sudden an unusual vehemence, as if he were spitting. he pauses again, then there is a brief jump as he cuts and sways back and forth from the camera, then starts to speak again with the familiar "Hi Everybody... it is almost 11:30 in the evening on Day 21. Things are going good and bad. The good is I see the end of it- only 9 days to go. But the bad things is I am beginning to see a lot of health problems." he reaches behind his neck to scratch as he lists skins rashes, difficulty breathing, which he describes as "heavy", and symptoms of post-traumatic syndrome.

He explains the shooting has intensified. In the background, the sounds of paint balls being fired constantly punctuates his monologue. He notes in the chat room people were doubting whether the performance was real.

Bilal quoes someone at IP address 195 as doubting whether this performance is real. Bilal says"It doesn't really matter if the performance is real or not....I wanted to illustrate the point that we are disconnected from reality sometimes." He differentiates being in "a comfort zone and a conflict zone". He expresses the view that the difficult decision whether or not to shoot must be left up to others than himself. His goal was to share the predicament of his family in Iraq. Perhaps, he notes the fact he has created the environment and set some of the parameters means he has a much better situation than his family in Iraq."I can step out of it any minute I want, they cannot step out at all" Bilal says.

Again he refers to the anxiety, the filth and the health problems. His attempts at improving the air with a fan, and cleaning the room have little effect on his immediate environment. He carefully moves across the room to avoid paintball fire, and shows the protective wood he had placed the previous day were completely painted with yellow, as was the tree. The floor has a pool of yellow paint with empty paint ball shells suggesting festering on the floor and lower parts of the walls where these would occasionally stick.

Bilal turns the camera back to look at the gun. It tracks, and fires and he sees it needs to be reloaded. He notes that he has to reload it almost every twenty minutes. This suggests a rate of fire of approximately one shot every six seconds. The camera tracks violently around the space as we hear bilal pouring paintballs into the hopper. The camera finally comes to rest on the hopper of the gun. He notes that 4000 paint ball had been fired that day.

He then holds the camera low to the ground, showing more of the filthy, paint covered conditions of the space, as he makes his way to his computer station. From there, he turns his camera back towards the gun. He says "this is for IP address 195. I ran out of ammo... it is a healing process " that would help himself, Bilal, deal with things he had not previously dealt with. He expressed hope but "wasn't sure if the performance would end the way he wanted to". I hope to be able to finish up, and in nine days to be out of here na this place will be in the history(sic)... My goal is to survive." saying he will do what he can to preserve his physical and mental health, Bilal signs off.



Suggestively, the hopper has the lable "halo" vsible on the side. Halo is also the name of the popular FPS series produced by Bungie Systems for Microsoft. This potential crossover between players of paintball and FPS digital games seems to touch on the idea of Dyer-witherford and de peyuter(CK) as a deployement of FPS as a kind of topoi that is encoded in the material culture of both types of games. The mock battlefield of both serves as a internal colonialisation similar to the battle fields of old imperialism, but now recolonising a globalised territory. How does his inside and outside negotiate with the inside and outside of Empire?

Youtube Video- The Paint Ball Project Day 20

"Day 20 Not feeling very good" says Bilal. He goes onto describe a pain in his chest which has grown bigger and feels "heavy". Expressing that it could be any number of things, he mentions remaining just in that space and never leaving, a lack of fresh air as possible causes for a difficulty breathing. He goes on to describe the morning as having a steady rate of fire with Switzerland contributing heavily, "bombing everything" he says.

He describes how the sheet of cardboard he had stuck on the wall the previous day to protect it required replacement. When he turns the camera onto it we see it is in tatters, with holes penetrating through it and into the wall beneath. he explains he will use new material to protect the wall.

As he proceeds he describes how he has changed the space by moving the computer into the middle of the space, eliminating the need for shield while working with it. The absence of shields now necessitates him walking low to avoid being hit.

A this point he smiles as Cathleen McGraff(CK) and Meghan Stirling(CK) enter the gallery, bringing him food. They brought him smoothies, tapioca and sushi. He says "Great, let's have lunch" having said he would post pone repairs as the two visitors entered the space. His expression, often rather drawn becomes extremely happy, with a broad grin. He says he will "update us later after lunch" and the segment ends.

When Bilal continues the days video blog his expression is again tense. He attaches some light plywood sheets to the wall. He decides to use a rolling plexiglass sheet to protect himself while doing the repairs. The damage is visibly worse than in previous days. He expresses sorrow that the tree has been damaged. He cuts the video briefly as he screws the panel to the wall.

He notes that at this point people seem to be either respecting the sheet and the repair process, or are holding their fire waiting for an opportunity to shoot him. When the final panel is in place an the shield is moved, firing commences immediately. Bilal records the growing number of splatters where the paint balls hit the newly installed cladding. He seems to chuckle as he says goodbye.

Youtube Video- The Paintball Project Day 19

The video begins with a close up on Bilal's face, illuminated by a camera light in a seemingly dark space. He said he "was afraid to go to sleep because he started getting up without realising the gun was above his head". As a result he decided to tie himself to the bed with some rope so that he can not get up and unconsciously get in the gun's line of fire.

He rubs his eyes as he descends into the basement, to retrieve some rope. As he searches the basement the camera points at his chest and shoulder and we can see the black paintball armour vest that he always wears. He holds up lengths of blue and yellow nylon straps. He ascends the stairs, with the camera gyrating as he reenters the room with the paintball gun


He says "This is what i miss the most, just the simple act of going to bed. It becomes very hard when someone is always aiming at you".Bilal then tries to go to bed by tying himself to his bed. The room Bilal is still illuminated, unlike the rest of the gallery. The camera again gyrates as he

A paintball shot cracks and Bilal jumps witha gasp. He explains he has tied the first strap, and is now tying the second one. The camera comes to rest on the floor, showing a pool of paint collecting across the floor, underneath the bed. Bilal picks up the camera and says "this is the rope- it is not perfect" but goes on to say it will keep me from arising unawares of the gun. He lies back, adjusts his armour and goggles then says good night. The video ends.


I find it difficult the describe it as the performance space, as it is a simulation of his living room, a gallery space, and this is merely part of where the performance takes place, as it effectively includes(or could be considered to) also in homes offices and whereever there is an internet connection that has connected to his server. His technician, for example, describes shooting at him via a mobile phone(and feeling badly about it immediately afterwards) while chatting about the project in a bar(Bilal & Lyderson p.TK)

Youtube video- The Paint Ball project Day 18

Day 18
The first a two part blog post begins with Bilal explaining his post was taking place at the end of the day, near midnight. He describes the day as quiet. A paintball shot rings out at this point. He continues, saying the day had "no particular dramas". Bilal mentions that he has brought a new tree to decorate the room. The video then cuts to earlier footage.

We see Bilal walking through the gallery space, carrying the video camera in his hand and recording himself. He says he hopes people will "respect the tree" rather than shooting it. He then turns the camera onto the tree, a small one and picks it up. The footage then cuts to inside the actually performance space. He considers how he will get past the  paintball gun. The footage is quite jerky . He decides to forego the shield in favour of dragging the tree.

He comments on how nice the tree smells. He then waits to see if anyone will shoot the tree. The  paintball gun is almost spasmodically moving. Bilal says this is due to multiple users trying to control the gun simultaneously.He remarks it would be sad if someone deliberately tried to shoot the tree. the video then returns to the day's introductory scene.

He said it didn't take long for someone to shoot the tree. It was "about 11 or so in the mornig" and the video cuts off abruptly.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DmrhucSu9Zk


The second part resumes a second both the break. I suspect this is due to the ten minute limit Youtube places on video. Bilal he says he feels a little bit sorry, and it  As the tree animates the room. Bilal expresses bewilderment that anyone would want to shoot the tree, although he shows the extensive damge to the wall due to the increased volume of fire aimed at the tree. The dripping paint is thicker near the tree, and many gouges are visible in the drywall.

Bilal goes on to talk about an interview he had done earlier with someone active in the performance's chat room. He suggests we might know them on that basis. This porousness of the performance is such that at this point we can begin to question where the performance begin s an ends- is the video part of the performance, or documentation? Is there a spacial component that differentiates the two? how does this work when both performance and documentation are experienced primarily through the internet, with most interaction by chat room?

"Hey every it's day 18. I'am here with a visitor" Says Bilal. He has her introduce herself. "Hi I'm Laura(Lara CK) Some of you may know me as 149." She goes onto explain she came to know Wafaa through the chatroom of the performance and since she lives in Chicago she brought muffins to him when she visited the performance space(And again, I ask myself, what is the performance space here?) She also brought him socks at his request. She unpacks  the bag of gifts and . Bilal thanks Laura and says how much the support of the community makes the performance more bearable for him. He then signs off from the interview.

He again cuts back to the opening setting. He agains thanks Laura and says that this is a "heart warming example of a community that is being built". He goes on to say this complements the ongoing discussion that he repeatedly says is the goal of his performance. As he often does he returns with a post script. He shows again the extension damage to the wall. He says he will cover the wall to protect so the shots do not "burn a hole" through it. He then signs off



 Bilal notes how good the muffins smell(a vary embodied sense) . Is the visual some how de-spatialised?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qh4U6pujjC4

Youtube video The paintBall project day 17

Day 17

Bilal begins this video by saying it is quiet- "except for the gun going off, every few seconds". He goes on to say he is having difficulty reaching people and that his support system may be falling, so he is trying to ask people he hasn't made requests to before. he says it makes him sad but he understands that his project has pulled his friends away from work and life. He makes a request to anybody watching who has time to visit to come to the gallery. He mentions he has a few friends who are supposed to be coming by that day, but his knit brow suggests that he is very doubtful.

It is slower when the gallery is closed he says and the video breaks

It is so good to be clean" Bilal says having taken a shower. He shows his clothes he had been wearing as being fairly dirty having not changed them for several days. He said Jason had come by with site statistics. They had received 6 million hits and transmitted 250 Gb of data, not counting the data from their earlier server. This volume of traffic pleased Bilal as it meant more and more people were "engaging in the conversation". He mentions he is chatting less as he is afraid that he is affecting the discourse in the chat room. He said he didn't want to be an authority figure but rather to "keep that narrative open" as people communicated with each other.

He says he does not seek a narrative, and wants a dynamic outcome that is not determined by himself or anyone else. he is aware that he has set parameters, but doesn't want to guide the outcome.

As the blog winds down for the day he says his energy is good, and that he is used to the sound of the gun. His demeanour is markedly more upbeat from the previous segment. having been living in the same clothing for days it is easy to conjecture that cleaning oneself and changing into fresh clothes might feel euphoric. he does mention that reloading the gun "got to him" as it involved him having to get up frequently in the night in order to load more paint balls into the hopper, sometimes every ten minutes.

he says that five hours of sleep. He assures people that his health is sound and he will complete the project. He says "The project is doing what it is supposed to be doing, engaging people in conversation" and asks that "people continue giving him emotional support". He then says good bye but returns with a brief video post-script.

he explains that some friends had emailed him asking why he is placing himself in physical and mental jeopardy. He says, simply"desperate time call for desperate measures".



How is the video different from the chat room? How does the performance shift from in mechanic to out of mechanic. Are the video blogs "cut scenes"?


is this game art or art game? The performance has finished but the documenting is still there; where is the temporal border of the performance? The spatial border is defined by Bilal as the gallery space, but we can follow him out of range of the gun as he walks through the gallery, or even beneath the gun mount- in the age of Empire, is this the limit of spatiality?
His is not a utopic space, because he bends the territory- like those who avoided battles in former Yugoslavia holidaying kilometers from battle fields.

Bilal's emphasis on a non-narrative or emerging narrative seem to relate to other interactive perfromance pices but also other emergent behaviors and this is a point where it touchs on Empire as an endlessly rupturing economic system. does duchamp also ask this?




  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K-t_otw-ang

Youtube Video- The paintball project day 16

The video begins in what Bilal calls a "quiet time- like the evening". He stumbles over his words as he mentions that they have over 250 people on the site at that moment but he suspects the server has crashed. He suggests this may have been a deliberate attempt at creating a denial-of-service attack by overwhelming the server or just due to an increasing awareness drawing traffic to the site.

He mentions two health concerns- a "heaviness" in the chest  that he thought might be due to either paint fumes or stress. The other problem is a feeling of physical weakness that he describes as growing day by day. As he says he "felt better yesterday" his monologue is interrupted by a spasm of coughing. He says it is probably due to a lack of sleep and stress.

he continues on to say that he is "beginning to hate yellow" as he looks back towards the walls covered with yellow paint spatters from the thousands of paint balls. He says he now hates the sound of the paintballs. He says he knows it is day sixteen and he is counting down towards the completion of the performance but expresses "Hope that he can continue" and so complete the work.

Bilal then uses the camera to present the damage to the room and its contents. The irregular horizontal band of yellow paint is clearly visible, and the floor seems strewn with spent paint balls. As Bilal gets down on his knees to show the audience under the bed he mentions that even though the server is down, sometimes it will randomly function, allowing a paintball to be fired. the result of the number paintballs has created a large pool of paint that trickles down the wall and across the floor.

The walls show significant damage from repeated paintball hits and the bed is splattered by paint balls rupturing on the walls and other targets. Bilal says again he doesn't mind the quiet but shows the gun is still moving slightly. He then says he will go down in the basement so he will avoid both colour and the paintball gun. He says he will go a try and get some rest. He notes he doesn't need the safety goggles as he leaves the performance piece, suggesting he now considered it normal to wear them.

We follow him as he descends into the gallery basement and finds a place to lie down, which he does with a groan, and signs off. He returns saying he can hear the gun. He says he hates the unpredictable nature of the gun"not knowing when it is going to go off". As he is saying this, we hear the distant crack of the paintball gun. Bilal rubs his face with his hand and turns off the camera, ending the day with out a sign-off




What does "performance" mean when you occupy a space as a residence?

the PaintBall project day 15

Bilal's video begins at about six o'clock in the evening, with him expressing a certain enjoyment in the silence due to another server crash. As he mentioned in previous posts, large volumes of visitors to the site overloaded it. In this case, the increased traffic was due to a large number of people finding the project via DIGG. He describes his mood as upbeat, despite the current obstacles he discusses.

He said that the previous day, the volume of fire expended almost twenty thousand paint balls in less than 24hrs. This qoute is interesting as he says elsewhere that about 60 000 paint balls were expended in total over the thirty one days of the performance. This  caused two obstacles which Bilal describes as essentially a physical pool of paint. The second obstacle he describes as financial- he had maxed out his credit card and had to borrow money from friends to continue buying paint balls and gas cylinders. A quick check of prices suggest that one day cost between 1700 and 2500 USD.

He said there were conflicting reports as to why the server was down. On one hand, he said the increased strain of increased traffic was attributed to the systems failure. on the other hand, he heard that members of the DIGG community were actively trying to crash the server to prevent people shooting at Bilal. He describes this second hypothesis as "heart warming". He thanks those watching as it "fills him with hope".

He ends by saying he is now counting down to the end of the project and looks forward to completing it, although he is concerned about the psychological and financial costs of pursuing it. He observes the frequency of shots, up to  or 5 a second" gives him no rest. Despite this he said he "looks forward to reporting more good news".

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EQ6XbZZIyVk

Youtube Video- The PaintBall Project Day 14

The video post begins with a breathless Bilal declaring the day had been "insane". He said the previous two or three hours had been a constant bombardment. The rate of fire had been so great it had trouble keeping the hopper of the gun filled. He points the camera at the paintball gun showing and almost empty hopper. As counter point to his narration, the snap of the paintball gun firing comes every few seconds- It seemed to be the most frequent that i had heard it while listening to the blogs.

He repeats the situation is insane, and seems to struggle for words. He points out how the room has been "trashed" and how the shots have been directed at him. I suspect he did not expect such a concentrated onslaught, especially after he noticed people had been aiming the gun away from him. He said "I don't know why people have all this hate in them" pointing out this barrage is due to many people logging into the site, not just one person.

The gun has run out of paintballs, but the gun continues to fire although it is empty. Bilal attempts to re fill it but it is clear that. He swears and gasps as the gun fires near him. He shows the splatter as he ducks behind a clear, plexiglas shield. He mentions that his site had been listed on DIGG, driving many more people to visit his site and performance.


What are the limits of this performance? How do characterise the venue? Is it the room, the gallery, the gallery space and the site? Does it leak out into social media sites such as DIGG and Paintball nation? Is Youtube a space of this performance? Are Bilal's video blogs part of the performance, or they documentation. In so far as Bilal intended that these would be viewed during the performance, and they encouraged comments from those that saw them, they seem to advance Bilal's goal of encouraging a dialogue about the issues that concern him.

Bilal said he had to run back and forth between the gun and shield and couldn't keep the gun filled and his camera operating at the same time . He admitted that he set up the situation even though it was disturbing and he wouldn't give up. He ends the video saying "It's empty, it's empty". Through out this video is a sense of frantic movement and extreme tension.

Youttube Video- The PaintBall Project Day 13

Day thirteen of the paint ball begins with Bilal lying in bed. He seems oddly relaxed as he discusses the bombardment just above his head. I could conjecture this is because he would not be surprised by the shots, but also knew what the limit of danger was to himself as he recorded this entry.

He mentions he had been banned from paintball nation(paintballnation.com). "Shame on you, paintball nation) Bilal said, repeatedly. according to Bilal, no reason was given for the ban.

Bilal then continues to note that paint and shrapnel sprays him. He notes tha he can't easily get up as the gun is aimed right above him, so he decides to remain in bed, and temporarily signs off.

Later, he returns and tries to demonstrate how he can get out of the bed. he notes how the gun is jerking back and forth as "people trying to defend me" attempt to turn the gun away from him. He mentions that at any time from 20 to sixty people are logged on to his site.

he puts on his goggles, and says he had 4 or five hours of sleep that night, so was going to slip out of bed, have a cup of tea and then return to bed and try to read. He then says good bye. Through out this video, the crack of the paintball gun firing can be heard.